Alright folks. 2021, here we are! We are now ONE MONTH (and a bit – let a girl live okay?) into this new world that we only dreamt would magically change this global pandemic chaos, and yet, 11:59 turned into 2021 and we are all STILL here. So what do we do? Do we still make resolutions? We certainly can’t flood the fitness facilities in most of Canada given that we are all (well the unlucky many) still locked down… What then?
2020 was mental health focused. How beautiful of a year to have had as much time to think, process, analyze and develop. Such a damaging event like Covid has blown up many lives (myself included) both mentally and physically. What I had been able to get out of it, was slowing the heck down… Learning to really stretch out those emotional twists that I so often avoided through work and socialization. Not only did I learn to stay home, to enjoy my surroundings, build gratitudes more deeply than the consumer lifestyle I had been living… I was also able to simply sit on the top of a ridge for hours and be grateful for the fact that I could do so without owing my time to anything else in that moment. How mind-altering beautiful to feel a moment, in it’s moment, without thinking of the next thing.
I have spent the last while soul-seeking, writing gibberish, goals, wants, desires, needs, and most difficult of all… abilities and limitations. 2021 to me is going to be focused on getting into the habit of self-drive for personal career goals. I want to be in control of my own life; my income, my hours, my time. I am choosing to focus on setting time aside each day for personal and financial growth. Why? Because once I attain this, I am free to do as I want. Whether that be disappear into the mountains for weeks on end, drive to BC and spend time with loved ones, or go across to the other side of this hemisphere to witness cultures that I have yet to discover. Whatever it is, I want the freedom to do it.
The interesting setback is solely this; mindset. 5am mornings, runs in below 10 celsius, early bedtimes, less alcohol, less indulgences.. Sounds a little boring right? But with all of that sacrifice comes incredible payoff. So why am I already a few days into February and still shaking that seasonal lag? I suppose we can give lockdown a little credit, but hell, I’d be lying if I said this were easy practice! Day by day, three steps forward and 139275239 back. Covid will be over by the time I give up (aka, never).
Behind me will be the days of mindless spending, crazy antics, unbeknownst weekends solely to spend time with more people. I want 2021 to be my development of minimizing, gaining knowledge for what I love, feeling prepared to do as I want, explore places that not many others have been and truly find the beauty in this physical world. Even if that means I f*ck up 1,000,000 more times before I get there.
Neesh Media 